I love my post-episode depression. <3

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I'm in this awesome funk right now, where all I want to do is sit around all day listening to sad, sad music and thinking about Dean's death. That hit me in all the right places emotionally in a way that Sam's death, since I was catching up on DVDs at the time, didn't. This season has had a chance to effect me more than any of the others since I watched it as it came out.... I think I kind of like that. :)

But yeah, the place that this has me emotionally an artistically right now? Is my fandom sweet-spot. This is the wonderful oh-wow-depression place that I spent a few days in because of KotOR, and now I'm spending a few days here because of Dean. This is the feeling I get before I write, or draw something meaningful, and all kinds of stuff. And it hurts so good. Thank you, Kripke. Seroiusly. I didn't think your show would ever truly effect me on an emotional level, just because few things generally do, but.... wow, thanks. <3

So... I still can't talk about the show. I just can't do it justice with words; I'd rather draw something. I hope something good comes out of this. I really do. :)

We had SO MUCH FUN last night, though. Sabrina, my one, non-LJ-using-IRL-SPN-obsessed friend came to the dark side with me and randomfangirl29. <3 She's got crack theories now, and is just as obsessed as the rest of us. Also, there was banana cream pie, and Rock Band, and dude. I love our little pie-days. <3333

And "Carry On Wayward Son" is so our show's theme song. Which means there'll be peace when they're done. Someday. <3

Oh, and in the most bizarre/disturbing news you might hear today, we decided to check the Fishchesters in the morning to see if Bobby was alive. Since, ya know. We don't really know on that front (but he's so totally alive). Anyway, umm... er... It looks like Bobby..........ate Sam. O.o I have zero idea what this bodes for the show, but seeing how Dean was the first to die, I'm going with the fact that it isn't good. That is all.

Btw, if anyone has any idea where I can get some piano sheet music for "Carry On Wayward Son", I'd be very, very appreciative. <3

Comments

[twasadark.livejournal.com]

Yay for impending creativity! Even if it did involve Dean's gruesome death which I am still sobbing brokenly about...

Um. What the heck does "Fishchesters" refer to??

[gembat.livejournal.com]

Heh... Me and my roommate bought two goldfish and named them Sam and Dean, and a big sucker-type fish that we named Bobby. Dean died about a month ago, and we decided the fish probably held predictive powers of some kind because we named them after the show.

The whole thing is full of crack and silliness, but now they're both dead, and I keep warily eyeing Bobby because dude I TOLD HER that that fish was mean looking. D:

[dazzlebug.livejournal.com]

Oi you! Wanna hop on Skype and cry together?

[gembat.livejournal.com]

Yes. CRY WITH ME. *is on*

[edge-of-night.livejournal.com]

Ooohh...I like that, "the fandom sweet-spot." And SO TRUE, there will be peace when they're done because Kansas said so! OMG, what in the world will they do in the end?? Boggles the mind.

[dreambrother89.livejournal.com]

I feel your pain. Really truly.

*goes back into funk (just finished watching 46 minutes ago)*

Damn you, Kripke. Emotion-wrangling heart-rendering creative genius bastard.

[sailor-mia177.livejournal.com]

I feel like a bad fan because everyone else is sad... and I'm not... D:

I mean he's coming back in some way regardless.

[nitro26.livejournal.com]

Dean is SO coming back, but I'm still sad anyway. =( BUT HOW AWESOME WAS RUBY?! <333